Well Hello There...it's been a long, long time
I know, I know. I've been absent from the interweb for a while. But with the impending birthday of my second child looming large in my life vision, I got kind of overwhelmed. Specifically by the interweb. And so, I shut it down.
The "it" in this instance was my participation in the internet. I exited twitter, stopped opening the Facebook (well, maybe I lurked just a little), and effectively shut down this blog. It wasn't a terribly conscious decision. It just kind of happened.
Looking back on it I realize that the Internet was both an overwhelming and internal conflict producing force in my life. Overwhelming because, um, duh! The Internet is overwhelming. With an iPhone in hand one has somewhere near the entirety of Human knowledge at their fingertips as well as insight into the daily minutiae of everyone you've ever met. And these days we're all expected to detail and broadcast at least some part of our daily minutiae for others to experience. And when you're 8 month's pregnant and all you really want to do is eat, sleep, and clean your house in preparation for the new resident who is about to move in...well really, who has the time.
As for the internal conflict...let's jet say that "you ruined my life and scarred me emotionally by putting my childhood up on the Internet for all to read about" is not something I want to hear come out or the mouth of either of my teenage and/or adult daughters. I've been getting increasingly ill at ease about posting about Lisel and with a second child approaching I wasn't sure where I wanted my boundaries to bs. So rather than figure it out, I just shut it down.
It was causing me anxiety. True, lots of thongs were causing me anxiety (second child and all that) but shutting down the blogfacebooktwitterverse was one way to cut down on one form of anxiety.
Now, now. I didn't go truly Luddite. I still read blogs, and googled things like "creme of tartar" and "three week old baby milestones." I watched lot of things on Netflix. I used the internet. I just didn't really interact with it.
Which is why, if you sent me a message on Facebook (and quite possible email) I didn't respond. If you posted on my wall, I didn't respond. And if you kept opening this blog and getting the same old post...well, that's why.
But I'm back. Slowly but surely, I'm coming back online. I'm still considering the boundaries issue, so this blog may start looking kind of different. Or maybe not. I'm not sure right now.
My disclaimer in case you don't hear from me for a while is that having two kiddos has really put a cramp in my time styles. In the last week I've started this blog post like, 5 times and have been interrupted by life (which is apparently what happens when you're trying to write blog posts). But however back I am, I'm back.
This weekend, after almost three months of momming it, I'll be putting my toe back work water. I'll be part of the cast of "A Ride With Bob" on Galveston. And the I'll go back to momming it until September when I'll get in the baby bus and go back on the road, this time with two kids.
I'll let you know how it goes.
In the meantime, what are your thoughts on internet disclosure. How much do you share about your own life? Inquiring moms want to know.
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