We're on tour
Lisel is not.
Sniff.
What kind of mother leaves this cuteness at home?We decided to leave her home for this four day run, because a) we're not only in the Mountains of Colorado for two days, which means twisty turny drives and ear popping altitudes b) we have a 24 hour drive from Colorado California c) two days after we get home we're headed out to the East Coast for 2 weeks, and Lisel is coming with us.
When I type it our like that, it actually makes me more secure in our decision.
As does the fact that every time I've called to check in today (which is like 4 times ) I've heard my daughter squealing with delight. Because she's at her Nana and Grandpappy's house having a good ol' time.
But of course, when I'm in my bunk, alone, or pumping (I really need to do a post about pumping) or looking at pictures of the baby, or hearing a story about a mom whose never spent a night away from her 4 year old I feel...less secure.
It's not that I worry about her being emotionally scarred by our separation. I know she's in fantastic and loving hands. But what if she get's sick, or hurt, and we're not there. And on the other end of the what if spectrum, what if she starts crawling or saying little words, and we're not around to see her reach that milestone.
But hey, c'est la motherhood! Is there much more you can do than make your choices, feel your complex emotions(and I think I'm about to quote Matthew McConaughey here) just keep living?
Because she's happier at my folks house, hanging on one place with the grandparents who love her, right? And if something happens, we'll deal with it in the moment. Right?
Right? Right?!?
3 comments:
My daughter took her first step at Gramma's house while I was at jury duty! Now at the time it was a real tradgedy. But after chasing the little gal around and around and around, always laughing and grinning at me, I realized it wasn't that big a deal. And it sure did a 'good one' for my folks! They were thrilled! Just enjoy each day you have with that cute little one, you'll find each day is a joy no matter what 'milestone' or 'sniffle' you might miss!
She's a beautiful baby. No doubt Leisl will be talented like her mama and daddy. Loved the poem, too.
Kelley
Oops, sorry I misspelled your little sweetheart's name.
Kelley
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